-Yoda (from The Empire Strikes Back) "Do, or do not. There is no "try"

Since I found out about the BKK trip, I got really excited. Haha.... now we can plan the trip together. It's fun. We talked about it all the time. Yes even if it's during exams. Nothing can dampen our spirits. We go after the exams.

 We have been talking so much about it that almost everyone knows now. There's this guy that we wanted to invited to the trip. We called him the "Eye candy" ....lol... OK one of the girls really likes him & they have been flirting with each other for the whole semester. But nothing much is happening besides that ,which is driving us NUTS ....lol... So we thought if he join us for the trip, it might give them a chance to know each other better. I was given the task of asking him. So I did. He looked at me, naturally surprised & said " girl , you know we are in the middle of exams right? " He must have sense my disappointment, as he immediately said " I'll try". I cant believe what I'm hearing- nobody rejects me ...lol.... it's true. The reason why I was chosen to ask him is because all my friends feel that way which is reassuring, or perhaps they were just chickens ...lol..

And before I could even think, I spontaneously reply with a line from Yoda "Do, or do not. There is no "try"." Seriously I just couldn't help it. You all know I'm a movie buff, I do memorize lines from movies- that's my thing. And sometimes it comes out naturally, like now! He looked amused & immediately said " ok sure, no one said no to you before ya? " Oh Boy.... how embarrassing that was. If there's a hole there, I'll crawl in! But bottom line is, I did accomplish the mission. Hopefully love sparkles in BKK.

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.

Since I found out I have not been invited to the December trip my friends were planing I was feeling really depress. It's quite obvious, so one of them asked me 'what's happening?' Initially I plan never to review to them that I know about the trip. But I just can't keep it in anymore. I was really feeling so bad, these are like my best friends !!!! So I blurt it out that "i know about the trip!'

She go like WHAT !!!! It's supposed to be a surprise! I go like ..."what surprise ?" OMG.... after like a minute of explanation, I found out it's supposed to be a surprise for me, a birthday present for me, my buddies were chipping in to pay for a trip to BKK for me as a birthday present! I can't believe my relief !!! I was so happy & very very touched. What was I thinking.... these are my pals, my buddies. We love each other !!!!!!

A beautiful song by the late Nat King Cole my parents loved came to mind : The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.

Why are you trying so hard to fit in when you were born to stand out?

My dad told me that yesterday after he found out why I was so upset. I found out a group of my friends were planing to go Bangkok for a short break coming December & I was not invited. I thought we do everything together. We study together, have lunch together & Go movies together.

Thinking of confronting them, but did not. That would be very embarrassing for everyone especially myself. I kept coming up with reasons for the exclusion. The only thing this suggest is that they don't really like me, which is pretty humbling & super depressing.

Anyway my dad's words stays in my mind. He's really such a sweet dad. He promise we will be going Paris this December. Paris is like a thousand time better than Bangkok right? Yes it is but that didn't take away the pain of being excluded from my friends. Still it's great. Can't wait for that now. On second thoughts, it did soothe my heart a little:))

Had meant to keep a journal of sorts, so here goes.....

On second thoughts my life aint that interesting so.......

I'm a movie buff...haha.... spend most of days glued to the set, so I might as well do something about it!!!!

Will list out famous lines from movies from now on...lol... hope you enjoy if you drop by!!!